I had been confused when suddenly I felt I didn't want this anymore. Baka natatagalan lang ako. When I started in 2013, I thought it would only take a year for the three modules but it has required more time than that. I have learned that it also requires commitment and enthusiasm (all the time).
I was losing those. So, I took a two-month break to look for a day job and to think (the night schedule was driving me crazy and making me cranky). I was even thinking of putting fashion school aside. I was so focused and in a snap, hindi na. What happened?
I tried to look for a job, but no luck. So I prayed for guidance and realizations that God may lead me to the right path and decision. If the job I applied to would only make everything worse, then please don't give it to me. The response was quick. After a couple of days, I have realized that I didn't want to leave. Not yet. A firm not yet. In fact, my job right now is the job that I need. I have forgotten that this job was His gift to me four years ago. A friend and my sister also told me to take it one at a time. For the first time, I listened. I also have tried to forget I work in the night shift. The attitude shift has done wonder to my disposition and ... sleep.
So I enrolled. I am in my third year now. Today was my first day. But I guess after today's class, my motivation went from zero to two <10 being the highest>. I still have 12 months to bring it back to a ten. And yes! I will be joining this year's exhibit. I hope to make it again. :)
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